alright so remember when i said i would be coming off hiatus… i didn’t lie but uhhhh
the tl;dr of it is that i’m uncomfortable on this dashboard for a majority of reasons that have been ongoing for over a year now and only growing so
i’m going to end up remaking tensa’s blog later when i have a gap in the ongoing anxiety and stress of my life to be able to do that
if we have a thread here that you’d like to continue i’ll grab it whenever i remake (and i’ll mention the people i want to reply to when i actually move) but otherwise i’m just. F. no energy to be here.
i’ll be… around, though. eventually. hopefully within the next month. i really miss tensa, i miss rping him u_u
alright his blog is 100% still in progress bc i’m busy with theme commissions and adhd and i need to get around to actually making his application presentable for the group i’m gonna apply him at but he’s gonna be indie friendly regardless and i’ll make a more formal post later but
alright so remember when i said i would be coming off hiatus… i didn’t lie but uhhhh
the tl;dr of it is that i’m uncomfortable on this dashboard for a majority of reasons that have been ongoing for over a year now and only growing so
i’m going to end up remaking tensa’s blog later when i have a gap in the ongoing anxiety and stress of my life to be able to do that
if we have a thread here that you’d like to continue i’ll grab it whenever i remake (and i’ll mention the people i want to reply to when i actually move) but otherwise i’m just. F. no energy to be here.
i’ll be… around, though. eventually. hopefully within the next month. i really miss tensa, i miss rping him u_u
Ichigo wishes he knew what was different this time. Tensa rarely lets Ichigo offer any sort of comfort, physical or otherwise. There’s some sort of idea that his emotions are a burden. It’s ridiculous. He never once thought less of Tensa for letting his emotions out.
Ichigo would rather know. Besides, Ichigo would cry if he felt like it. If he could would he needed to.
In some ways, seeing it is a relief.
For all that the sword is crying across his lap, the opposite is what’s hardest to deal with. Tensa’s more worrying when he holds it in. When his anger is cold.
And maybe if Ichigo hadn’t chased the sword back to his inner world, Tensa wouldn’t have allowed it. But somehow it all ended with Ichigo crouched to one knee, catching the bankai round the shoulders to draw him close.
He keeps an arm wrapped protectively around the sword, letting his head fall to rest against Tensa’s. He wants to ask. He wants to know what happened. But he doesn’t want to interrupt or break whatever fragile truce that’s keeping the sword close.
He’s not even certain Tensa won’t be mad that he showed up for this when it’s over. But it’s where Ichigo wants to be. Where he feels simultaneously the most useless and needed. Tensa says they can’t be friends, but Ichigo doesn’t know how to be anything else.
i owe some replies here that i really am gonna try to get to at some point but i’m gonna go ahead and throw tensa onto a nearly-full hiatus because, uh.. haven’t been feelin it here lately
i’ve just been having more fun on other muses in different communities and while i still have tensa as a muse, i just haven’t been having much inspiration to log on here and… do things. so just to make sure i don’t disappear without a word, here’s this
Rating: General Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Category: M/M Pairing: Muramasa/Tensa Zangetsu Status: Finished, 1/1.
Summary:
He’s been at it for what feels like at least an hour now, just gently petting Tensa’s hair, smoothing it back whenever it falls over his face. Muramasa really thinks he’s asleep.
